The good thing about being single is that Summer is here. This hot 'n' spicy season brings with it long drunken nights, hungover days at the beach, a lovely golden tan and without a doubt... summer love.
So I left my home in the new land to return back to my native home for the three and a half months of salty pleasures... And on my journey back I remembered why I love being single so much! It was fun and funny at the same time.
Even if I went through the self-inflicted hassle of leaving 45 minutes late for the train, having to ask random strangers to help me carry my overweight luggage (full of the most amazing summer dresses!) and sliding the luggage underneath the barriers when they closed on me (Yes, I got loads of glares as I set off the alarms... If I don't make a scene, then it's not me), I had an omnipresent feeling of independence, freedom and inner happiness.
And it hit me just as I was listening to my ipod waiting for the next train to come that I'm happy, I was glowing from the inside! For the first time after some time, me smiling depended on my own accomplishments, my own way of dealing with things, my own way of being. Yes, I love being me and knowing that I can count on myself to make things right!
I feel like I had lost myself for a while, I forgot what made me who I am. I was relying on others to make my day and to make me feel important. But that morning was different... It all came back to me. I love shopping! I love the glamourous life! I love to enjoy it! I love to have a drink or two in lovely places! I love Rose' Wine! I love to be in control of things! and I love love love to think that I can do all of it on my own without feeling a hint of loneliness!
It's not about wanting to be alone or wanting to be single all my life but rather about self-knowledge. Knowing myself well enough to be able to be in my own company without getting bored! When you get to this point you have a special smile on your face and a particular glint in your eyes which is much cheaper and so much more effective than plastic surgery. People will stop to look at you because you ooze confidence and happiness. It is undoubtedly the best feeling in the world.
I have come so far and accomplished so much from last Summer to this one and I did not stop to think of it once, before that moment when I was waiting at the train station. It was as if someone gave me a makeover, no more heavy thoughts, no more why's? and what ifs? nothing! I was just immensely pleased of where I am in life and how I am taking things into my stride- I was glowing with self-appreciation.
Of course, I cannot help but mention that half my confidence came from the fact that I was well-prepared for my journey. Yes, that day proved that an extra pair of sheer tights and a 50ml spray bottle of deodorant can make any girl go a long way. Only because whatever you go through, you have a plan B to fall back onto- and the great news is- you thought of it yourself!! ;)
So today I raise my Margaritas to self-appreciation and inner happiness. The only two things in life that are as essential as mascara and lip gloss! May you all take some time to go out in the sun feel the warmth and give yourselves a good pat on the back for having made it so far- whatever your life story was! And remember to Smile :) Everyone will wonder what you're up to :) xxx
