Just a small town girl

One of the most commonly heard songs on the radio and anywhere else is Don't stop Believing originally sung by Journey and adapted by the Glee cast. It's also my morning song.

It's funny how I listen to it everyday as soon as I wake up and yet I can't go further than the first paragraph and the chorus when it comes to lyrics. There is something about that small town girl mentioned at the beginning which engages me, gives me strength and energy. I feel like I can relate to her.

I don't come from a small town, I come from a small country, but I do feel like I'm living in a lonely world, away from home, away from friends and family. I've made new friends of course and everything is going well but home's where the heart is and my heart is in another time zone.

This feeling however made me think, we may not all be from small towns, countries, families, but we all do get that feeling of being tiny in a lonely world of unfamiliar faces. We all get that sensation of emptiness and loss. 

And almost always it's us who have to take the initiative to push those feelings away. We have to stand up to our own selves and start believing again. To believe is to have hope, hope in a better day, in a happier moment, in something, somewhere that will fill that void that lies within. That same thing that will make us feel like we fit in- we belong even though our roots are planted elsewhere. 

Just like the girl in the song, I too feel like catching a train going anywhere, just randomly looking for that magic, that fulfilling sensation. Don't we all? So how can you not think of that boy 'born and raised in south Detroit' that catches that same train going anywhere? Don't we all want to believe that they met? That her world was not lonely any more after that night? Wouldn't it be nice to know that for one night, it didn't matter that she was from a small town and he was from the city... they were themselves and they filled each other's emptiness, even if momentarily.

The song does not give anything away, but I guess I will always think  it happened just because it gives me that warm ,fuzzy feeling on the inside that there is hope; that wherever I go and whatever I do I will find that one thing, that one person who will make me feel home again, like I belong. 

So tonight or rather this morning, I'd like to raise my Margarita to all those things, all those special people who fill my void and yours, because without them, our world would be very lonely indeed. Cheers! 

When saying nothing is saying a lot

March... the third month of the year and as the snow is clearing and the sun's appearing so is my life flowering. As I was deeply earthed following my February mantra of living in the present, I caught a glimpse of two gorgeous eyes looking my way, belonging to quite a man I must say- and maybe it wasn't love at first sight, maybe this isn't your typical 'lovey-dovey' story, but whatever this is, wherever I am right now, is without a doubt called, a happy place.

And this lovely man has already popped the question! Yes he has... he has asked me, quite a number of times now, the question which all women dread to answer... "what are you thinking?"

It is quite elaborate the way a woman's mind works- what we think about has often no logical sense once vocalised. Most of the times it's an inner desire, a deep feeling, a dream, a thought which under no circumstance do we want our man to be familiar with , especially if this man is still wearing the price tag and the clothes that he came in.

It often depends on the level of comfort, trust and understanding between the two, but the determining factor is how much weight that thought carries. As much as we may sometimes confess the truth, we do tend to avoid the question by stating the obvious or more likely by uttering the word every man dreads... "nothing" followed by the most innocent of smiles.

And mr.man, please note, a woman's nothing may well mean more than anything. 

There's no other option... we resort to the "nothing" card when we know our thoughts will be made fun of, argued against, rejected, confirmed or worse of all, will make him run for the hills. 

So if you're a man who is reading this, know to never push a woman who says "nothing" to reveal, but be aware that something is going on and, honestly all you need is some intuition, attention to detail even, to find out for yourself. The smile that follows says a lot, a woman who looks you in the eyes and smiles means she's happy and  might feel a lot more for you than she is ready to express. If a woman looks away and goes deeper in thought,then you know something is simply not right so work your words well (yes, think before you speak!!) to find out what it is.

There are a lot of things women want to say. It's finding the right time, right words, right man to say them to, until then we may opt for a smile, a kiss, a look or simply a 'nothing'.

So I raise my Margarita today, to absence of words... it may seem like nothing but it does mean a lot.